I had a vision one night last week that revealed that the Lord was going to bring back to His children the eyes of understanding. He was going to begin allowing us to understand the warfare that has been coming against us and how to see our circumstances as they truly are. I held onto this promise, knowing that I was struggling myself to understand my own life circumstances.
Fear is a red flag for me that lets me know that I am not placing my confidence and trust in the Lord about a situation. And when I begin to struggle with fear, I also begin to search my heart of what I am afraid of and why.
The past month has been super challenging for me on a personal level. A few circumstances rocked my boat and I struggled up until recently with believing God was for me. It was hard.
What I did not realize was that I was harboring a fear deep within me, a fear of rejection actually. This fear immobilized me to stand my ground with a certain individual in my life. I feared that if I allowed healthy boundaries to be placed in this relationship, then that person would cut me off.
I had allowed my fear to allow that other individual to have power over me and to easily manipulate me. This fear that I had, that I continue to fight against, was hidden from me. I had no idea that it was ruling over me and that I had handed over my power to it.
When I realized what was happening, and what had been happening in this relationship for almost a year now, I repented to the Lord, asking Him to forgive me for handing my power and free will over to someone else out of fear. I also praised Him for helping me understand what was really going on with this relationship, remembering the vision He gave me about “the eyes of understanding” returning to His own.
I then decided to take my power back. I first declared to myself that I was no longer going to be afraid to be cut off and rejected. I declared that if this individual chose to act in a way that rejected me, I would be fine with their decision. I would not like it, but I can still choose to live my life fully and happily despite their actions.
As I was declaring this, I felt my power return. I felt the fear leave and its taunting voice. It was no longer ruling over me and I felt free. I continued to pray for this individual. I also prayed spiritual warfare prayers against the constant attacks of the enemy via this individual.
God then revealed to my heart what I had done. I had broken a stronghold that was forming and an attachment that was unhealthy with this person. He told me I was much more powerful than I was allowing myself credit for and that He made me this powerful through His Son.
This individual called me shortly after and, to my surprise, was treating me nice. It was certainly spiritual warfare coming against me. And the Lord wanted me to remember how our battles are not against flesh and blood. I very easily forget this truth.
The Lord wants you to be set free as well. He wants you to stand against a fear in your life that is dominating your decisions and behavior. So let God set you free and allow Him to reveal to you what fear is trying to have a hold on you.
This is a season of God blessing us with His eyes of understanding of our situations and lives. I pray that as you begin to understand clearly what the enemy tried to disrupt with confusion, that you will see and receive encouragement from the Holy Spirit with how to move forward in victory in Him.