You will never go wrong if you continue a pursuit to love the Lord more and to allow His love for others to grow your love for them as well.
I’ve seen believers pursue after spiritual giftings, anointings, knowledge and platforms, but those who pursue the heart of God and what He desires experience true transformation.
To desire a deeper relationship with the Lord, to want to know Him more and His heart invites more of His presence into your life.
And I’ve never walked away from any true experience with God unchanged. His presence will undo you, it will mess you up in a good way. And it will birth in your heart a deeper love for Him and for others.
If you are having a hard time genuinely loving others and desiring to care for them, then your heart needs more of Him.
Instead of pursuing what you can do for the Lord turn your attention to just pursuing Him. Ask Him to give you a heart like His and your love for Him and others will increase.
Then you can’t help but want to minister to the Lord and to those He loves.
“If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears.”
1 Corinthians 13:1-10, NIV