In this second vlog on my mental health journey, I will be sharing with you how God healed me of a benign brain tumor and the impact it had on me and my walk with the Lord. Be blessed friends with this testimony!
As a follower of Christ and one who has struggled immensely with my mental health over the years, I felt compelled to document this journey via video logs. A lot of my healing has taken place already, and no doubt there is more healing to come, so I will be sharing with you parts I have already been through, how I am doing today, and the expected moments of more healing to come.
In this “uncut” video, I am breaking down a prophetic word I shared on social media with you this week. The Lord led me to further discuss His promise of instilling confidence in His children in this season to serve Him and be a light in this world.
God is instilling in you confidence. This confidence is an assurance of the call He has given you on your life.
You might have doubted that call or thought you misheard what He was saying, but be assured beloved, you heard Him correct that first time.
As you allow the Lord to shape and mold and cut off the sharp edges on your life, that confidence will have more room to grow and solidify.
And as the Lord formed in Ezekiel a strength he needed to stand up against an entire nation in sin, so will He place a similar strength within you.
“But I will make you as unyielding and hardened as they are. I will make your forehead like the hardest stone, harder than flint. Do not be afraid of them or terrified by them, though they are a rebellious people.” Ezekiel 3:8-9
Without arrogance or pride, you will move forward in a humble confidence of what the Lord put in you, of what He has equipped you with, and of how He will work through you as you step forward in service to Him.
Real confidence lacks in arrogance and pride, because the two latter are rooted in insecurity and a fear of lack.
This confidence that comes from our Maker cannot be duplicated by man, it is a supernatural confidence from His Spirit alone.
The Lord is asking you to step with faith into this confidence that He has for you and is allowing you a clarity of mind to know this comes from Him and it is not of your own making.
We need such a confidence as we are and will continue to be faced relentlessly by opposition from the enemy.
The season we are in no longer affords us to be intimidated by the attacks of the enemy, or affords us to doubt the very marching orders we heard from the Lord.
We can no longer shrink back in faith, doubting our abilities in the Lord and our callings, every time we face challenges and attacks.
No, we must clothe ourselves in this promised confidence of the Lord and choose to be unmoving in our individual tasks directed by our God.
As a follower of Christ and one who has struggled immensely with my mental health over the years, I felt compelled to document this journey via video logs. A lot of my healing has taken place already, and no doubt there is more healing to come, so I will be sharing with you parts I have already been through, how I am doing today, and the expected moments of more healing to come.
Whether you are a Christian or not, it is my hope that as I open a window into this part of my life, that you would be encouraged to remain hopeful where hopelessness taunts and find comfort and healing in God as I am.
Join me as I share with you a recent vision I received from the Holy Spirit concerning the division found in the body of Christ.
It is my prayer that the Lord will bless us with more wisdom and discernment in order to see clearly any deception we have been receiving into our lives. May the Lord help us to combat this deception with His truth. Some of this deception is the root cause for the terrible division we see in our nation and in the body of Christ in this season.
No matter what happens, it is I who will surround you on all sides, it is I who goes before you and behind you.
I have called you to be resilient, yet I see your hesitation because of the hurt you have experienced multiple times in your past.
But be rest assured that as you move forward in obedience again, coming out of a season of turmoil and exhaustion, and choosing to allow me to make you stronger and more resilient as a result, I will protect you.
Lean into me as your Protector; fierce in defending you and strong in guarding you.
I am the Lion of the Tribe of Judah, roaring mightily beside you.
Take courage and don’t mind the opposition with their empty threats.
Move forward with confidence from knowing I am here with you.
As many of you know I removed myself off of specific social media platforms roughly three months ago in response to those platforms censoring conservative and political voices.
It is still extremely unfair and controlling of these platforms to do such a thing. And not to mention very frightening and very similar to the control of other nations that claim communism works well for them.
I stepped off those platforms confident that I would not be returning to them and confident that the Lord was leading me to do so. I was moving in obedience, standing on a conviction that these platforms were and still are in the wrong. And I felt a huge relief once I did.
And I did not look back.
I was content with a small ministry as a result of this decision, knowing that pulling off of these larger platforms would diminish my reach tremendously. And I was willing to do whatever the Lord wanted me to do rather than seek out any ambitious goal or dream that was not of Him.
I have had three months of peace to be honest. And three months to focus on important things in my life like caring for my grandmother, my family and my own health, rather than being caught up in how people are responding to the tumultuous and confusing events in our nation.
And the Lord used those months to speak into me things I had not heard before. He led me off for good reason and I am thankful for the time He hid me. He allowed the vision of my ministry to continue to take shape, for my relationship with Him to deepen even more, and for the discerning of His voice to strengthen in me.
However, during our time away at the beach a couple of weekends back, the Lord started to speak to me to return to some of those platforms despite them being guilty of censoring and restraining conservative and religious voices.
He is now calling me out of this season of hiding, and once again, leading me to put my ministry on platforms that, though are not perfect and evil lurks in their leadership, still need His light to shine on them.
As I was grappling with my decision to return, the Lord helped me to remember that He sends us out to be a light in the darkness.
So even though I am not pleased with the silencing of voices, and I am very aware that my voice will be just a drop within a sea of chaos, there will still be an impact to be made and a heart to be encouraged that will make it all worth it.
Jesus came into our evil world, was not deterred by the perverse generation before Him, but chose to give His life for it in order to be THE LIGHT that overcame the darkness.
So in a nutshell, what I thought was a permanent move, was in fact, only for a season. It was right for me to step away, to point out the obvious wrongs of censorship, and to re-align myself more with the Lord. And it is right for me to respond to Him in the affirmative telling me to return back.
When He calls us to do something, which if it truly is Him will always align with His Word, then we must obey. However, it does not mean that others, both believers and nonbelievers, will fully agree with our steps toward obedience.
Check out another “uncut” video where I share my heart with you and what the Lord is teaching me! Be blessed friends!
Resilience, according to Oxford Languages online, is the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; it is toughness. It can also be defined as the ability to spring back into shape.
And according to the Merriam-Webster online dictionary, resilience is being capable of withstanding shock without permanent deformation or rupture, and recovering from or adjusting easily to misfortune or change.
Now let us look at some synonyms of resilience: flexible, stretchable, springy and bouncy.
I wonder if the Lord is training His church to be more resilient in Him.
We have been undergoing many trials and for quite some time now as a whole. And these trials have not relented, but have continued to come one after another.
The mark of a strong and resilient church and believer, is the ability to remain steadfast in their faith and loyalty to the Lord despite what comes their way.
And according to the above definitions of resilience we can characterize such a church as able to recover quickly from their difficulties, having a toughness about them and able to spring back into shape when challenged. They are flexible, stretchable and springy. They are resilient!
History proves to us over and over again how the strongest of us are those that have and continue to endure persecution and great difficulties. We are not unaware that the persecuted around the world are at times unnaturally strong in their faith and resilience.
This is because through the difficulties they have faced, they have learned the secret of depending upon the Lord for their strength and help. If it had not been for these difficulties they were faced with, how else would their faith muscles have been stretched so far?
I believe, this is a season that we believers in Christ ought to take advantage of.
We need to acquire a supernatural resilience that can only come from the Lord. And each time we are faced with a difficulty of our own, whether personally or as a body, we must choose to ask God for resilience instead of allowing these trials to snuff out our hope.
We have the choice to become stronger through each battle we endure, or to become weaker.
We have a choice to continue to take our stand in the Lord each and everyday, or to live our lives defeated.
Asking the Lord to help us recover well and quickly from each obstacle we are faced with is our act of faith in His promises. He promises to be with us, to never leave us, and to join us in those moments where our faith is challenged.
Countless times we see God’s children faced with the impossible of situations and He always comes through for them.
God can make us resilient. He can strengthen us. He is our strength and we can come out stronger with each trial we walk through.
Let us live our lives where when faced with trying circumstances we then allow our faith to grow, our trust in Him to grow, our awareness and understanding of who He is to grow, and our character to grow.
Let us choose to mature and grow up in Him and become the resilient body of Christ we were made to be.
Your mind tells you that you cannot take another hit, another onslaught of attacks, another fight against the enemy.
Your flesh tells you to give up and to join the many who have decided to not take their stand against this prowling lion.
But Jesus is calling.
He continues to call each of us to stand in the gap, like Moses for the Israelites, like Esther for her people, and to remain a watchman on His wall.
The mature in Christ understand the value of remaining in this fight. A fight for the souls of familiar faces, for family members lost, for the unreached but not forgotten.
We may be tempted to ask the Lord why me?
Why am I the one remaining on two feet with sword in hand?
Where are the others who promised to fight alongside of me?
You are not alone. The Lord stands around you and He will draw more courageous fighters to your side. For though it feels like you are alone, there are many that have chosen to remain faithful and obedient like you.
The Lord will provide for us like he did Jonathan for David, Aaron for Moses, and Elisha for Elijah. The enemy wants you to feel weak, defeated and alone. But Jesus promises us strength, victory, and to be with us as we go.
You are stronger than you know.
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
